I have to focus on my Dutch course today because I will do my end test for level 3. I always studied hard and worked hard to get what I want. why? Because my principal. I want to be proud of myself even in the end, I couldn’t reach it or I have been failed. I would say that I did my best J. It’s not always easy to keep on moving forward and hang in there. It’s difficult to keep buffer your energies and to sit hours for reading such a boring book and doing your home works day after day while weather is really nice outside, while It’s tempting to chat with someone, while reading “Facebook” friends status is more interesting.
All things come with a price. Pay the price so you can get on with enjoying the dream. So I am paying the price before could smile when it be in my handful. I have been studying since march until now. My Dutch is improving in 4 months and I can feel it and I am happy of that. I can speak and write in Dutch. I can understand the news and people daily conversation. All of the improvements make me proud but also tired, I am tired to study everyday like a full time job. I saw my anger , how can I become complainer? Who I am? I should be grateful to get this chance. I should shut-up my narrow mindset.
Haaaahhhh, It’s not easy, I turned off my laptop and tried to be focus again. Within 2 hours, I studied a lot already, but I had a difficulty even only to remember new verbs. While studying, Sven comes and asks how I am doing! Like usual.
Efrata : I am doing great and being busy studying!
Sven : do you need some more motivation?
Efrata : Like?
Sven : I got a phone call from city hall and your visa has been approved! You can get your identity card tomorrow. It’s valid until the end of October. Once you enroll at university, then hand out the paper to city hall, everything will be ok, they will give another one year permission.
Efrata : What? Oh really? Seriously? (I can’t believe it)
Sven : yep (smile).
I jumped around, I laughed, I cried, I was speechless. All the hassle that we went through aren’t not useless. One more worried go down. With this ID card I’ll get many advantages.
- I am not illegal anymore, I never really illegal here but I kept on worry about my visa. The question “How if” has always danced and now stopped . 2 levels to go then I am officially as Master student at Gent University and I don’t need to worry about my visa.
- I can travel again in Schengen territory. I can spend my holiday in another countries which I really want to visit.
- I can start to find a studentjob and to gain more experience. To work hard to a better future.
This news was enough to get me back to road and to start fight for a live, my live J.
2 comments:
ef, setelah gw sampai titik ini ( udah hampir sidang pas gw nulis ini) dalam bikin skripsi, gw kagum dengan dampak dari pygmalion effect.
lo sempet tanyakan apa itu pygmalion effect?
ini jawabannya:
pygmalion effect refers to the phenomenon in which the greater the expectation placed upon people, often children or students and employees, the better they perform.
jd dengan adanya harapan yg gw tentukan (dalam hal ini skripsi selesai), entah kenapa gw bisa... padahal gw tau bgt, kemalasan gw yg jd penghalang terbesar gw.. tpi entah kenapa selalu ada jalan dalam mengalahkan kemalasan itu dan selesainya skripsi ini..
jd inti pelajaran pertama "tentukanlah cita2mu/ harapanmu secara pasti dan jangan berubah2, pasti ada jalan yang akan membimbingmu".
semoga hal ini terjadi kepada mu...
kejar terus cita2 mu ya ef...
berani bayar harga.. this concept also implemented in my mind since a year ago. Started from a year ago I also knew my SWOT n trying to improved my potencies. Someday i'll be a lecture in a university and I'm going to travel around the world (yes i am a dreamer!) well, just shoot for the moon even if I miss, i'll land among the stars :p maybe be someday if i read this comment again, i'll be on somewhere abroad hihihi (oh i'm a big dreamer..)
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