It's Totally Okay To Be Failed (A New Lesson In My Life)

I have been studying and following Dutch course in Gent University since March 2010 until now, so far I could pass every level. The students come from all over the world with different race, We follow Dutch courses with some different reasons, some of us follow the course to be able to communicate with locals, the others want to find a job or study in one of Universities in Belgium. Some Major are taught in English but unfortunately, there is no psychology which taught in English neither master or bachelor. So I have no choice, I have to study Dutch first. Anyway that’s not the only reason I motivate to speak Dutch properly.  By speaking Dutch properly, I could find a student job easier that students who couldn’t speak Dutch. When I graduated from psychology, I find that It’s easier for me to find a professional job here because I could speak the language.

I follow a very intensive Dutch course, I have to attend the class from Monday to Friday. Every day is a new lesson, so there is no other better way to master the lesson than repeating all the lesson after the class. I did all my teacher’s the suggestion such as routine activities like watching news, reading magazines, reading books, speaking Dutch constantly and repeating all the lesson and trying to remember all the grammatical and new words.

I sit in  level 3 of 5 in total and I have studied more than usual the past two weeks, because I felt level 3 is more difficult than the lower levels. This morning, I did the test and nothing I can say except It’s too difficult for me. It’s just too difficult even I have studied hard and I have done my best. The last 5 minutes of 3 hours, I have not read and answered the reading section yet. So I just cross the answered, lucky that It’s multiple choices answered. Johan (friend of us), Cathy (My classmate from Filipina), Sven and I went lunch together to a student restaurant near by my course. I pleased Johan and Sven not to ask how’s my test, I was so worried that I would never manage to pass this level and I need to repeat the same level for 2 or 3 times.

Cathy and I went to shopping center after lunch, We hoped that it would help a bit to clean our mind and get a peace mind. Indeed, we could be more relax and  We stopped discussing about the result, let’s see it on Thursday. I arrived home this evening and I felt sad again. I am stressful keeping on thinking about my result. If I could not pass this level, I would be embarrassed  to myself because I never failed so far. It’s normal not to pass one level of Dutch course here if you sit in that level  first time. Only 40-60%  of total students could  pass every level, some students even did every level 2 times or 3 times and more than 7 of 23 students in my class did their 3^rd level for the 2 or 3 times.  It’s not the reason for me not to pass this level. I have to pass this level because I want to enroll in Gent University on time but nothing I could for now than waiting to see the result on Thursday. I’m almost sure that I couldn’t pass this level and slowly but sure, I could accept that. I will do this level for second time, yeah..why not?